It's Been Awhile...

Despite the fact that I have been home on break all week, I haven't written in awhile. So sorry, for all of those who were left hanging with my last post about housing and finances. My mom and I sat down and crunched the numbers on Tuesday night. It turns out that it would only save me $1,000 a year if I lived off campus. So, considering the headache it would be to actually convince the school that I should live off campus, we decided it wasn't worth moving off campus for the next two semesters. I'll be honest, I am a bit disappointed. It was exciting to think that I could be truly "on my own". But, at the same time, it was a pretty definite "no". I remember going into the whole situation just praying that God would give me wisdom and guidance to know what He would have me do for the next semester. Apparently there is something that I am to learn or do on campus. I am at peace about that, God is in control and He has said to stay on campus. So now comes the challenge of roommates and choosing rooms. Fun fun!

So now comes the next prayer request. I can't afford to attend PBU. I knew that before I went there. $30,000 a year is a lot of money; money I don't have. But when I applied last year, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that God wanted me to attend PBU to get my masters in Christian Counseling. I was so sure that God would provide the money, whether during my years at school or afterward. But, I'll admit, my faith is wavering. The loans are stacking up; I got myself in some deep water by taking out a loan with a high interest rate, and different people have different opinions. I am trying my best to surround myself with people who will truly help me make wise decisions, but at the same time, I do have to make a lot of final decisions that are difficult. Some people say just to take out as many loans as I need and then gradually pay them off after school. Others say that if I can't afford the school, than I should not attend there. I thought I knew what God wanted, but now I question myself and what I am shooting for. It seems foolish to me, yet I do know that God owns the cattle on a thousand hills and His plans often do look foolish to man. So I would ask, my friends and family, that you would pray for clarity. Pray that God will again show me what I ought to do, and that He will provide the resources to take the next step. I don't need, don't expect, the entire solution to be laid out before me (though that would be wonderful), but I do pray that God will give me what I need and the light to see to take my next step. And I do think He will do that for me. So keep me in your prayers, I want to do what God has called me to do; I just need to know what that is exactly :-)

Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. It is a great comfort to me to know that so many people love and support me.